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im making a new entry just because i feel like it.
school sucks. it sucks it sucks. its uber boring and long and theres homework. the worst part of all is that you have to get up at 5:30!!! its obsured. like i said, the world hates me. i like writing but right now, i have nothing. for a change. maybe ill think of something later....
i dont know why people get so worked up about arguments....i like to argue. people think im like actually yelling at them or im mad or something. i dont get it. i feel like anytime im arguing about something, that i need to have all these facts to form an opinion. just because they know more about a topic does not mean they automatically win. its about how you can get your opinion across rather than prooving something because theres no way you can prove an opinion because if you prove an opinion then its a fact. its like, sure you have all these statistics and sure you know more....i still think your opinion is complete bullshit. sorry. you dont intimidate me. if you think what im saying is complete bullshit, for god sakes yell your ass off at me until i get it through my thick skull. im not afraid to admit when im wrong but i am very set on my ways. i dont like when people give up so easily. you see, i would join debate team if i was good at public speeking. whenever im infront of a bunch of people, my mind goes completely blank. oh well. im a stubborn bitch but keep in mind, im also really open minded and will respect anyones opinion.
note to self: yell at john until he cries. what a bitch.  | | |
| i think the world hates me.
why didnt jack johnson come to charlotte?!?!!?!?
i like my new picture, screw you if you dont like it.
i really do write in my xanga too much. its like im thinking out loud 90% of the time. i write an unhealthy amount. well hey, i guess theres nothing wrong with that. this is the only place where i dont feel limited to saying what i want to say....its weird how i dont mind that people read about my fucked up mind. im running out of things to write about, things to talk about then once im done saying everything i look back and im like holy shit this is a LONG entry. oh well. i wanna go to the jack johnson concert, i think that would be so amazing especially since i know every word to every song. grr. stevens making me watch funniest home videos on animals. its stupid. wth....hmm. i wonder in my life time that it is normal to take a vacation to the moon. that would be cool. if so, i wanna retire on the moon actually not really, it would get boring. theres nothing there. tomorrows my moms bday. my dad isnt gonna be here, how sad is that? so...no i will not go to the movies, or the mall, or anywhere because im staying here with my mom and we will do whatever the hell we feel like it. my dad got her a gift ceritificate to a spa which she REALLY needs since she has so much stress and i thought that was very thoughtful of him because a lot of thought went into it, he called everywhere and everyone to try to figure out if she likes massages. i told him she doesnt. so she just got her a gift certificate. SHIT SHIT SHTILKGJSDGL;KDSJT;KLWETJWEA;KLJEWTK wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just realized I DIDNT GET HER anything wtf is wrong with me?!?!?!??!! i didnt even think about getting her anything! not even a card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i seriously knew it was her bday and everything. sooooo that means i have to get up early to make her breakfast, make her the best card ever on the computer and give her lots of hugs. i feel so stupid. wow. really. sigh....im glad i thought of that. i feel like a dumbass. bahhhh. this is the most pointless blog ever. im trying to think of some genius philosophical thing to say. nothing. i guess this makes me normal....which sucks. lets talk about some of my many pet peeves! woopty doo. i find it bothersome sometimes when people think too logically. they feel the need to prove everything and they believe everything has a reason or something scientifical behind it when its just life. i dont like over analytical people. in general they are really stiff and dont sit back to just enjoy lifes simplicitys. i guess it really depends on the person. there is a difference between being curious and being overanalytical. its 1:36 and im not tired....at all and i still have all my makeup on. i dont know whats worse, reading my ramblings about nothingness or reading ramblings about my long boring day. you know whats odd.....now whenever i go out somewhere, i notice everything around me. and i have this overappreciation for life if there is such a thing. like last night i was noticing how pretty the faux painting on the ceiling was at barolos, my rear view mirror, my moms eyeliner, how my waitresses eyeshadow brought out her eyes, how huge the bowl made my food look, how cool my feet look when they are moving, the girl next to us who was talking really loud on her cell phone and was being a bitch, and how sad my mom sounded when she talked. yesterday i was walking with the kids and brittany and i just stopped and i was like "the clouds are so pretty, like a painting" and i stood there for like a minute then i realized they were all way ahead of me. i dont think thats normal. its like i go out somewhere and its like the most amazing thing ever. just experiencing life i guess, i really dont know. i notice peoples eyes a lot more. and when i look through myspaces i realize how the popular girls, and all their friends look exactly the same every single time and all their pics. its weird. its like they all wear tanktops and denim skirts and their hair is all perfectly straight and to the side. i wonder if in 20 years, today will be the new 80s and is considered horribly tacky. that will be interesting. i wish i could talk about certain people but who the hell knows who reads this. people have been annoying me lately. they always are ranting to me about their problems as if what im going to say is going to help them at all. if it really was a problem id do whatever i could to be there for them and help them but the thing is, its all bullshit. like how brittany wont shut up about her fucking party and how im such a horrible person for not throwing her a party when i think she is being completely selfish about everything then yells at me for being selfish for not throwing her a party? and then she yells at me for not going to the movies because i feel like shit and me and my mother would like to spend some time together. and the thing is, now im just able to not get worked up about it. idc anymore. sometimes my friends really do annoy me. i feel really boring in comparison. and i feel like im not completely my self when im with my friends which bothers me also because i should be really open. this is why i dont like big groups, i feel overwhelmed. i dont like feeling like i have to get people to notice me or pay attention to me. i dont like feeling like i have to prove to people who i am. i guess thats why it takes awhile to get to know me. im really and truly fine with that. im not the most outgoing person but i dont mind. i love my friends to death and i have the best time when im with them and thats what really matters, right? of course. thats all that ever matters.....doing something with your life. is there anyone out there who actually reads every single word i type? i think im probably the only one, i dont blame you...my entrys are always freakishly long anyways. ill stop here even though i have more to say.
k. i changed my mind. but now i actually have nothing to talk about but anytime i do say that, i end up with something so the more i keep typing, the easier it will come. so....i have to pee. you know, i have to pee a lot. i drink so much water. i hate how most of my teachers dont let you pee yet we dont have enough time to pee inbetween classes and the lines durring lunch are really long. the world really does hate me. sometimes i just have the worst luck. jesus...what about jesus? how much would the world be impacted if there was proof jesus never exsisted? would christianity exsist? of course it would. people who are truly christian dont need proof but they have faith. if jesus isnt real, they still believe in the bible...they still believe in everything thats in the bible even those the whole religions was based around bullshit? of course. because religion isnt about facts and proof...its about morlas and beliefs. thats why i dont think it is truly necessary to have a specific religion....i have my own beliefs and morals, who says i have to believe in everything a bunch of people believe in? religions are always created by egomaniacs that want everyone to believe in what they believe, if they arent egomaniacs then they are just philosophers. so whats the difference between philosophy in religion? nothing. really. if you think of something let me know. well i guess thats it for today, its uber late and i have to get up at 10.
k. my alarm didnt go off so i got up at 1. my mom opened her gift certificate w/o me, she had a piece of cake without me and now shes going out to eat with her work people without me. does the world hate me? really...i think the world hates me.
im being a 1920's flapper for halloween. steal my idea and i might be forced to kill you.
if anybody can find a code for "monuments and melodies" by incubus...ill be the happiest person ever. it is seriously the beautifulest song ever...its on my myspace (www.myspace.com/x___meg) | | |
| Overview: Staying detached when mulling over the past is never easy, but if you stay cool, calm and collected, you may just be able to resolve some long-standing difficulties in your life with a minimum of fuss.
Daily teen (by Astrology.com)
Read a poem today. Encourage yourself to think metaphorically so that your perception and analysis can take off to a new level. In that way, you'll be able to re-think a past event and reach satisfying mental resolution.
k well i slept over at brits. i watched the notebook! i saw it already but only the end. the notebook has got to me one of my all time favorite movies. my favorite part was when they were lying on the street and shes like "what happens if a car comes" and hes like "we die." k.....well i babysat w/ brit these kids in brittanys neighbrohood. i fell asleep so brittany only gave me 10 dollars..mmm it was boring. they have the cutest dog though! and they fed me icecream....
rachel mcadams is freakisly beautiful.
yea, it was boring. we basically went home at 11, tried to upload songs on brittanys ipod, gave up, then slept. my cold is getting worse. i hate it. i hate the feeling of having colds, it just drains you of everything. stupid brittany....she got cherry sick who got me sick.
that was my day...exciting? not really.
im going out to eat with my mom for her bday (her bday is sunday) its gonna be great.
nobody cares about me rambling on about my day so lets think of something to discuss! oh, i hate when people ramble about their lives. especially if i dont know them and they IM me and they send me 309582958 messages and dont realize that i really dont give a fuck. i mean come on, i havent responded in 10 minutes. i mean if i actually care i would respond. but you dont need to go ON AND ON! ohhhh whats worse is when people ramble about stuff that has no significance at all. like how awesome that band is, and how hot the lead singer is, and OMFG IM SO HYPER!!!! i.....dont......care. k. i feel better. actually, not really. oh, what i really miss is in france, i was in a little cafe drinking coffee. then i was like holy shit, im drinking cappuccino in a little cafe in france overlooking the rhine river...or was it the rhone? either way it was beautiful. i was thinking does it get any better than this? it doesnt. i seriously want to move to france, it has so much art and history and america just seems so artifical.....i wanna move anywhere out of america. everything about america is aritifical..the people, the media, the landscape, the buildings, the history, the spirituality, the food. yea sure im over generalizing but once you leave the country, you really do realize how insignificant america is compared to the rest of the world. its like we live in our own little bubble, away from the rest of the world. our standards are so completely different and those standards are standards i dont prefer. i just really miss europe, it was one week of my life ill never forget. it was just an amazing experience that im glad my parents provided me with. once im older, i want to travel. i want to make as much money as possible then my last years of my life, just go everywhere possible before i die. i want to squeeze limes in the caribean, i want to sip a latte in france, rub buddhas belly in thailand, ride a camel in marocco. im 14 and i feel like im running out of time. i want to eat exotic foods and be with the one i love and nothing else. and here i am, in a tiny little room....sipping on a shitty starbucks carmel latte, writing in a pointless weblog which maybe 8 people tops will read. i feel really insignificant.
i would talk about wahts bothering me but i dont have enough pms and i dont want to come off as a depressed bitch like i tend to anyways. so im just gonna leave it at that. excuse me for thinking out loud once again.
i wonder when people will realize that repetitive, generic hardcore bullshit isnt music. seriously, i think eventually they will be the new good charlotte, i hope.
1) pardon___Me
2) theperfect___disguise
3) a___whisper
4) under__myumbrella
5) karmas__payment
i narrowed it down to 5, so chose because i really cant pick one...
Me: So Mom, what's your favorite beatles song?
Mom: oh oh oh! Here, there and everywhere.
then i looked at my reflection in the side view mirror. half of my face was soked in sunlight, the other half was covered in a shadow. and thought, what a lovely picture that would be. it made one eye look abnormally blue-green and the other eye normal. i liked it a lot.
sooo....here, there and everywhere is number 300 on my playlist. its the sweetest song ever
number 61 ive had on my playlist for awhile and ive only listened to it once so...i listened to it today. i like it a lot. and number 49....ive had playing for an hour non stop.
oh, what would i do without music?
im starting to really love jason mraz, some songs will be added tomorrow if i remember. hhahaha my playlist is gonna be 1000 songs one day... | | |
| Basics
Name: Meaghan
Birthdate: November 26, 1990
Place born in and Nationality: Baton Rouge, LA....white
Places I've lived
Baton Rouge La
Massachusettes
Charlotte NC. woohoo...
I like it when....
i stay up til 3am having online conversations
im lying on the beach at midnight with no light in sight
surrounded by amazing/down to earth people
I dont like it when
people flirt excessivly
when people try to force their ideas on others
its unbarebly hot.
My All Time Favorite Songs
wish you were here, pink floyd (271)
dog and the butterfly, heart (93)
champagne supernova, oasis (holy shit i didnt realize this wasnt on my playlist so i added it, its at the very bottom)
something, beatles (245)
paranoid android, radiohead (10)
yellow, coldplay (214)
pantomime, incubus (149)
My Current Favorite Songs
sexy plexi, jack johnson (262)
green eyes and politik, coldplay (221, 220)
breathe in, frou frou (287)
new slang, the shins (268)
the world at large, modest mouse (50)
magdalena, a perfect circle (209)
take a picture, filter (57)
My Favorite Bands
Incubus
Coldplay
Frou Frou
Modest Mouse
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Radiohead
My Favorite Places
NC coast is so amazingly underappreciated
alsace, france
my bed and backyard.
starbucks and coffee works
Things That Annoy Me
attention whores
close mindedness
people who brag about their intelligence
Things that Make Me Really Happy
Grass and sand.
amazing people
amazing surroundings
an old fashioned "feel good" type of song, you know?
peace of mind
Things I am Scared of.
the future; my future
insects
wasting life
I need
people to be honest and open minded...people who can hold a meaningful conversation
my friends and family
someone who to make me truly happy
to be less selfish; listen more.
music to clear my thoughts
Favorite Famous People
Brandon Boyd
John Lennon
Mark Ruffalo
Random Facts
when im sick, i drink hot chocolate because its soothing.
i find it more enjoyable when my music isnt blaring my ear drums.
i believe you can see 50% of who a person is if you really look into their eyes
i have too many favorite songs.
Some Stuff
I like to read books about people, movies the same
I dont particularily suck at math, i just dispise it because i find it completely worthless in the long run of things.
I prefer rural over urban
Im a vegetarian, not a vegan souly because i would die in a week if i didnt have cheese.
hopefully you learned something new about me, if not....i dont care.
id tell you about my day but i figured that this mattered much more than my day, because it sucked. and i have a cold and my stomach was hurting all day. | | |
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